It’s official

another awesome day. i stayed up all night working on my book and then when it was time to leave for school i had an overwhelming urge not to go. i started crying. and then i emailed my professor and said i had a migraine, which, based on past experience, i will get in a few hours so its more like a forecast rather than a lie. despite having the future on my side, i felt overcome by guilt. i was ready to crawl out of my skin. i let him down, i let me down, i mean come on wtf? what adult student skips school? am i completely pathetic? Yes. and horrors upon horrors i reread the email i sent to MC and it sounded like i was a total cunt when i was really just being friendly and honest (MC, if you are reading this, i wasn’t trying to be mean or snotty. i’m a socailly inept retard. i think youre wonderful). AGGH! Guilt punches me in the throat again.