so i will keep them open

i know i’ve told you this one thousand times but i will say it again: I HATE MY FUCKING LASIK DOCTORS. yes, i went back to the dildo squad today and they did their usual bullshit routine and said “The eye needs to heal, come back in 6-8 weeks.”
i want to cry but i told myself i shed my last tear over their nonsense, so i’m holding it in. fuck. fuck. fuck.

ok.

in other deteriorating body news, i got the stitches in my face out. the nurse said my face gash looked awesome and it was going to heal beautifully. She took a picture of it with a digital camera and showed it to me. I thought it looked like shit. She said i was awfully young to be getting skin cancer. i said: mmm, not really. then she said: How old are you? I said: 34. She said: “Oh my goodness, i thought you were in your early twenties!” then i punched her in the face.

ok. kidding about the punching part. she was probably the nicest person i have encountered in 5 years. i just feel rotten right now.

im not the only one in the house that feels miserable. my poor little pug has an ear infection. this is a picture of her in the snow. she’s a very cute pug. she’s so loyal and affectionate. i hate it when she feels bad :(

every time i close my eyes i imagine slitting my wrists.