doing the impossible

it occurred to me today that i’ve been at my university for 3 years and havent made one friend. that seems nearly impossible dont you think? i mean, for the average person – i’m not anorexic, obese, ugly, pretty, stupid, genius, or dirty and smelly. i’m pretty fucking average.

its unsettling to me because i dont want to go through life friendless. if its like this at school, it will be like this at work. i’ve ben accepted to go to Prague this summer so that i can graduate early. i’m really tired of the loneliness at school. i’ll be going with all the same people who ignore me here at home, so hopefully i wont combust from loneliness in the czech republic, where i cant find my way around and dont speak the language.

maybe the czechs like americans. i hope.

20/what?

So i went back to the lasikulous doctor today. honestly the man does not make any sense. he said the inflammation was down (hurrah!) and my vision is improving. the vision improvement claims seemed suspect to me, so i asked him what it was today vs. what it was two days ago when i was there. he looks in the chart and says its 20/200 today and it was… (flipping through the pages in my chart) … 20/100 last time.

WTF?

eye dont know

i went back to the lasik center today. the doctor seemed concerned about my blurred vision and eye inflammation although he never really says anything. i have to go back on wednesday. i asked him why i was coming back, are we charting the blurred vision or the inflammation? he said the blurred vision and inflammation and rushed me out to the front. god i hate that place. i would like to switch to a better doctor/surgeon but i have given these people thousands, and all my care is free there from now on. i’m afraid i have Diffuse Lamellar Keratitis but this is only my retard guess from looking online. the doctor is useless.

and now to blame the rich

so for my next studio project i’m creating 2 design pieces that pertain to 1) consumerism and and 2) the hideously wealthy. previously my professor had us make images at an insane rate, 54 every two days, and so we have tons of not-well-thought-out hodgepodges of images and apparently my images evoked 1 and 2 above.

enter Adbusters:

“This disaster derives from a system piloted by a dominant social stratum that today has no drive but greed, no ideal but conservatism, no dream but technology. This predatory oligarchy is the principal agent of the global crisis,” writes Kempf. “The present form of capitalism,” he adds in an interview, “has lost its former historic ends, that is to say the creation of wealth and innovation, because it has become a financial capitalism, disparaged even by capitalist economists. This capitalism, which destroys jobs by rationalizations, new technologies and globalizations, overall and everywhere increases the disparities between rich and poor within each country and between different countries.”

This oligarchy he targets is not satisfied with blindly consuming and wasting the planet’s material resources with its big cars, its airplane trips, its unbridled consumption of living products, its uselessly vast houses, its unrestrained energy wastage. It has also, adds Kempf, spawned a model of hyper-consumption that the lower and especially the middle classes now attempt to imitate, just as developing countries try to imitate western countries – even though, whether instinctively or rationally, everyone clearly knows that “this ideology of waste” and its drain on planetary resources will inevitably come to an abrupt end.

excellent! i’m thinking i’ll make a poster and a short flash movie.

bum’s eye view

i finally got my lasik “enhancement” on friday. enhancement is code for we fucked up your eyes and now we have to go in and burn some more tissue in your occular cavities so you can see like we promised. so, now my left eye is nearsighted and my right eye is farsighted. apparently this all comes out in the wash in a few weeks. meanwhile, i put antibiotic drops in the left eye 8x a day, tears 10x and some anti-cancer drops 4x. it is a life of luxury.

so im a brand spankin’ new to this whole blog thing. hopefully i wont lose sight in both eyes and can continue to fascinate you with the details of my life.

mmm. time for more drops.